Huh. Recently I'd lost someone I love. No its not that that person had past away or what, but that person is no longer mine. Heartbreak? Yeah, totally. Usually I will tell that person E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G that I've been, simply as how my day was. But it seems like not anymore. Okay, to make it easier, lets call that person as X. I dont know why, but I feel like X had changed. Me and X, we used to text all day long, but not anymore. K, that's not the problem, its okay not to text like 24/7, a few text a day will be okay for me. The problem is, even that we text, it will only ended up with a fight. I'm sick and tired of it. I dont know why, but that is the truth. I've tried to be patient, not to fight back or throw bad words, cursing and stuffs, but it didnt work. Its not that I didnt put an effort to keep our 4 years of relationship! Im sad, mad and hurt. 

HI BACK :)

So hi! To those who had been reading my blog I'm sorry for not updating it for a long looong time. actually I almost forgot that I have this blog. Okay. Honestly, the reason why I feel like blogging again is because I need to spill all the shitz inside my head.

Flood my ask!

1.Are you a virgin?
   Definitely        
2.What are you majoring in?
   Studying       
3.What's your sexual orientation?
   Both, I guess
4.Are you crushing on anyone? If so, who?
   Yeah. Min;)
5.What's the cutest thing someone's ever done for you?
   Okay that's a top secret, haha
6.What are the top five places you wish you could go before you die?
   Mekkah, Venice, Dublin, London and anywhere in Europe.       
7.What was the scariest moment of your life?
   Kantoi diary dengan mommy:/       
8.If you could take something back that you said or did, what would it be?
   I've once called my friend 'kampung'.       
9.Do you think that the person who sent you this number was cute?
   IDK       
10.If you had to name three important details about you, what would you say?
    My name, age and where I live.       
11.Are you allergic to anything? If so, what?
    Freakin' liars
12.Have you ever been in love? If so, are you still in love?
    Yes. Yeah;D
13.Do you like sports? If so, which ones?
    Boleh lahh. Volleyball.       
14.What are four things you can't live without and why?
    Family, Min, Friends and FOOD!
15.Do you have a facebook? If so, would you add the person who sent you this number?
    yes. Hmm, have to think about that.       
16.What do you like to do in your spare time?
     Spend 'em with Min      
17.What are your biggest fears?
    Losing Min and spiders:B
18.What are two of your biggest weaknesses?
    Min, and sweet texts.       
19.What are your three biggest insecurities?
    Everything about Min:3
20.If you could write anonymous letters to three people, who would you send it to and what     would you say?
   Min, Dozen and Thomas. I'll say that I love them soo much, and hope our relationships will last.       



• I am a male.
• I am a girl
• I am shorter than 5’4.
• I have many scars.
• I tan easily.
• I wish my hair was a different color.
• I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
• I have a tattoo.
• I want a tattoo.
• I am self-conscious about my body.
• I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
• I have more than 2 piercings.
• I have a piercing in a place other than my ears
• I have freckles.
• I’ve sworn at my parents.
• I’ve run away from home.
• I’ve been kicked out of the house.
• I have a sibling less than one year old.
• I want to have kids someday.
• I’m in school.
• I’ve lost a child.
• I have a job.
• I’ve fallen asleep at work/school.
• I always do/did my homework.
• I’ve missed a week or more of school.
• I failed more than 1 class last year.
• I’ve stolen something from my job.
• I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.
• Disney movies still make me cry.
• I’ve peed from laughing.
• I’ve snorted while laughing
• I’ve cried from laughing so hard.
• I’ve glued my hand to something.
• I’ve had my pants rip in public.
• I was born with a disease/impairment. 
• I’ve broken a bone.
• I’ve gotten stitches/staples.
• I’ve had my tonsils removed.
• I’ve sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
• I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
• I had a serious surgery.
• I’ve had chicken pox.
• I’ve had measles.
• I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day.
• I’ve been on a plane.
• I’ve been to Wales.
• I’ve been to Singapore.
• I’ve been to London.
• I’ve been to South Korea.
• I’ve been to Hong Kong.
• I’ve gotten lost in my city.
• I’ve seen a shooting star.
• I’ve wished on a shooting star.
• I’ve seen a meteor shower.
• I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
• I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
• I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
• I’ve been to a casino.
• I’ve been skydiving.
• I’ve gone skinny dipping.
• I’ve played spin the bottle.
• I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
• I’ve crashed a car.
• I’ve been skiing.
• I’ve been in a play.
• I’ve met someone in person from Facebook.
• I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
• I’ve seen the Northern lights.
• I’ve sat on a roof top at night.
• I’ve played chicken.
• I’ve played a prank on someone
• I’ve ridden in a taxi.
• I’ve seen Rocky Horror Picture Show.
• I’ve eaten sushi.
• I’ve been snowboarding.
• I’m single
• I’m in a “it’s complicated” relationship.
• I’m in a relationship.
• I’m engaged.
• I’m married.
• I’ve gone on a blind date.
• I’ve been the dumped more than the dumper.
• I miss someone right now.
• I have a fear of abandonment.
• I’ve gotten divorced.
• I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back
• I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
• I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
• I’ve kept something from a past relationship.
• I’ve had a crush on a teacher.
• I’ve been kissed in the rain. (HAHAHAAHXD)
• I’ve hugged a stranger.
• I have kissed a stranger.
• I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
• I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
• I’ve snuck out of my house.
• I have lied to my parents about where I am.
• I am keeping a secret from the world.
• I’ve cheated while playing a game.
• I’ve cheated on a test. (French test to be exact) 
• I’ve ran a red light.
• I’ve been suspended from school.
• I’ve witnessed a crime.
• I’ve been in a fist fight.
• I’ve been arrested.
• I’ve passed out from drinking.
• I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
• I’ve smoked.
• I’ve smoked weed.
• I’ve taken painkillers when I didn’t need them. (6 of 'em:B)
• I’ve eaten mushrooms.
• I’ve popped E.
• I’ve inhaled Nitrous.
• I’ve done hard drugs.
• I have cough drops when I’m not sick.
• I have 3 pills at a time no problem.
• I have been diagnosed with depression.
• I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorders.
• I’ve taken an anti-depressant.
• I have been anorexic or bulimic (Bulemic)
• I’ve slept an entire day without needing to go pee.
• I’ve hurt myself on purpose.
• I’ve woken up crying.
• I’m afraid of dying.
• I hate funerals.
• I’ve seen someone dying.
• Someone close to me has committed suicide
• I’ve written a eulogy for myself.
• I own over 5 rap CDs.
• I own an IPod or an MP3 player.
• I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
• I own something from Hot Topic.
• I own something from Pac Sun.
• I collect comic books.

BOYFRIEND? OH NOOO!

My mom have been acting weird these past few days.

I'm not saying that she'd gone crazy or what. It's just that

she asked me if I had a boyfriend. Obviously I don't, and

I think I don't even need one. Then yesterday she'd said

to me that it will be okay if I wanna have a boyfriend,

and she's cool if I wanna go for dating and stuffs.

Uh mommy, its not that I'm afraid to have a boyfriend,

its just that I think I'm not ready yet to get involved in

these whole boyfriend-girlfriend thingy. Hope you

understands..

Guys these days..

Last night I got a text from a guy that I don't even

know him. So like usual, I wont reply texts from

the number I don't know. The psychopath about this

guy is, he suddenly texted me with these horny words

and he even asked me if i was horny and if I would

like to play sex text with him. God what is the problem

with this guy. Helloo, I'm just sixteen and who the hell

he thinks I am? A slut? Hey go and have a real sex

with a prostitute dude! Don't be so desperate okay!

Oh God

My heart is on high-speed chase

Some people laugh,and some people cry
Some people live,and some people die
Some people run, right into the fire
Some people hide, their every desire
But we are the lovers
If you dont believe me
Then just look into my eyes
Cause the heart never lies
Some people fight,and some people fall
Others pretend, they dont care at all
If you wanna fight, i'll stand right beside you
The day that you fall, i'll be right behind you
To pick up the pieces
It's not always easy,but I am here forever
We are the lovers
I know you believe me
When you look into my eyes
Another year over,and were still together
Its not always easy,but i am here forever

Mingming

Be safe in Bandung(:

I had a nose bleed,

argh _|_



( The right one )

Meet Amir my lil brothaa;D